Hmm--so I haven't come here in a while [few months]--actually I'm rather surprised that I got here before year end.  A cause for celebration---ahem, not really. WOW--I was amazed by the musical Guys and Dolls. Pretty good stuff. Oh and by the way--the internship very nearly sucked--except now I get to do my own project there--w00t.  It's rather queer that I come here only to complain--atleast I will know what I complained about 20 years from now and laugh at myself [since it is healthy]. But, nonetheless... I can angrily rant about Dr. Bissett, evil English teacher who everybody is okay with except me. She still SCARES ME. AHHHH.  But, I'm rather in a dead mood. I have college apps left to do--whooooo[dies]. I think I'll fall asleep before that is ever over. Wanna know where I am applying [future Psyche]? -Case Western -UChicago -UMiami [although that's falling off my list pretty soon] -USC -UPitt -Harvard -Trinity You know, I really don't want to go to any of these colleges.  They're all rather boring, except UChicago, Harvard, and MAYBE UPitt. And I definitely wanna go out of state [feels right]. But I'll sooo miss my mommy.  What will I do without her and without my dad and brother? It's a depressing thought. Atleast if I am far away from home, I won't feel so "needy". But if I am 6 hours away by car or 2 hours by plane--I'll want to visit everyday. Maybe it is a good idea to go where everyone else is going. I can add Rice then and I'll be around people I know. but GAH--I wanna go where I can do research and pre-med. [future Nobel prize winner Psyche]. And some lack one or even both. It's all very confusing--LIFE DECISION AT AGE 17 RUINS STAR--headline across front page of my life. I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN.  I think I have a headache and I dunno where it came from but it hurts like HELL. Now my stomach is making funny noises but I'm quite satiated. It's all a sign that I went insane 20 years ago [in negative years]. Well, future Psyche, if ever you made a good decision, come back and tell me so I'll know it and do it. And if I win the Nobel prize--come tell me that too--motivation. Until next time [more like a few days--Thanksgiving Break], -psyche from the past. | 
There are the cut and dry teachers 
or nearly cut and dry...coughcreepyTcough. Then there are my awesome friends 
and then the various attractions 
and the 4 mile walk everyday to and from classes 
. So you see, I really really hope my efforts go far--the tragic separation of the sapling from the family tree, the struggle to make the A, the tragedy.... need I continue by lamentations? Maybe Baylor med? 
or Stanford/UCLA/someotherfrigginawesomemedschoolwhichdoesn'tcostoodlesandoodlesofdollars. GASP. that was long. 
